I Can Make it Better…I Can Fix it Better…
I Can Fix It Better!
As a man, or maybe as a perfectionist with OCD, or maybe just as an idiot, the "when something is fixed enough line" remains elusive to me to this very day. “When Something is Fixed Enough” is simply a concept that my brain cannot grasp apparently.
I cannot even remember how many really cool "things" that I really, REALLY did fix, honestly, originally. But alas, the old "you can make that better" or "you can fix that better" demon weasels its way into my mind, or it was always there – it’s hard to say. And I begin down that doomed spiral of self-delusion and fatal denial as I "make it better and fix it better" until the point that even if I HAD FIXED IT, there would be no point claiming to have fixed it, and I would be made the liar and a fool by such claims because I have now broken it even more so than it was ORIGINALLY broken! So, I have always been “doomed” to the “Guy Who Can’t Fix Shit” title.
I’ve watched other people fix stuff. And I have helped other people fix stuff. And they ALL know “when something is fixed enough” and they STOP me from “trying to make it better.” I’ve gotten better in the past few years actually. Sheri will help ‘Supervise’ me and when I actually have fixed it, she won’t let me try “to make it better,” no matter how desperately, no matter how badly I want to try. She is smart and has become wise over the years, and she has saved us a lot of money from not always having to replace everything because I destroy it beyond all repairs.
It is always embarrassing when someone else points out the fact that I did not completely fix something. I underestimated that damn, mysterious “when something is fixed enough” line and erred too far on the side of caution and only “just barely fixed” it. I hate fixing shit sometimes. I just don’t understand why my “make it better” enhancements so rarely meet the original manufacturer’s specifications and guidelines…
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