Fun with Seizures
Right now, I can feel a large “chunk” of the left hemisphere of my brain. It feels like hot steel knives, followed by cold steel knives are slicing away at that chunk of my brain. The waves come every few seconds and I don’t know if it will be a hot knife or a cold knife. At the same time, I feel as if that entire portion of my brain is being imploded itself. I can feel the distinct lines where the knife slices are cutting through my brain, and at the same time, that entire fist-sized chunk of my brain is being imploded, painfully imploded, at the same time. Lots of fun…good times!
I can feel the seizure coming on. It begins with little, mini-seizures, like warm, numbing water being poured out from my head and quickly flowing down through and throughout my entire body, acting like Novocain, numbing the body, and mind. These waves become stronger and stronger and with each one, I lose more and more a grasp on coherent thought as my cognitive abilities are “washed away” with each mind-numbing, cleansing wave. Then I start twitching. Usually a group of muscles in an arm or leg, or both arms, or both legs, or sometimes, just every muscle in my body just starts twitching. And the jerking begins, just random, rapid, painful contractions of various muscle groups.
These used to freak me out. They used to freak Sheri out even worse! I try to remain calm now and not panic. That doesn’t actually stop the seizure from coming on, but it does lessen the severity of the seizure because of the fact that I am not panicking, not flooding my system with adrenaline and other “flight or fight” hormones, while my body is already in distress from the seizure.
Not all my seizures are massive seizures and I don’t have full-blown grand mal seizures but a few times a year. However, I do have petite mal and partial seizures all the time and they are very tiring. Afterwards, I usually am very disoriented, have difficulty walking, or thinking clearly, or speaking, and for hours and often for a day or two afterwards, my muscles are very, very sore. Sometimes, if the seizure is mild, I bounce back rather quickly. On the other hand, if the seizure is also accompanied by a TIA, and I end up paralyzed (usually my left leg) for 15-30 minutes afterwards with a droopy face and sagging eye, it can take several days to a week or two for me to fully recover.
Well, it’s starting to escalate to that point where I just have to close my eyes and sit and wait it out now, and just enjoy all this fun time with seizures!
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